On the Precipice...

Lately I have been thinking about my Christian faith. And I mean really considering it. I have realistically always believed in the Bible and what it teaches but I haven’t really lived it. To put it in church terms I don’t think that I have walked the walk.
Now I have always stayed away from the really bad stuff. No drinking, smoking, drugs….nothing like that. From all outward appearances I have always looked like a good Christian. One who doesn’t swear or get angry and goes to church every week. Involved with the youth groups, knowing all the lyrics to all the church songs…etc. You have a good Christian stereotype, chances are that I have been that somewhere, to someone.
The problem is, that isn’t good enough. I have recently been experiencing a period of unrest in my Christian faith. A turmoil. A revolution in my own Christian thinking. Not a crisis of faith or a doubt of the things I believe, but a realization that if what I believe is actually true, I’m not living as I should. This might seem strange to some people; those people who think that I have been all that a Christian must be. In fact, for the last ten years or so, I thought that I was everything that I needed to be. Sure, there were always little things to work on, but I was being a good Christian…..right?

Living as a Christian is so much more than singing songs and going to church on Sundays. It is a lifestyle. A Christian is one who follows Christ. Am I following Christ when it comes to ALL of my decisions? Jesus simply walked up to His future disciples saying, “Follow Me.” They dropped everything they were doing and followed Him. If I am a Christ follower, a Christian, why haven’t I dropped everything to follow Him?

It seems to me that all Christ followers must make a decision. We all say we believe what the Bible says. But if that’s true, then why don’t we drop everything? Give it ALL. “Do you really believe that what you believe is true?” If you do, then what’s holding you back? What’s holding me back?

Personally, I am on the precipice of this decision. Either I must fall back into the comfortable life I have grown up in and keep Jesus encounters for Sunday, or I must take a leap of faith and trust God with EVERYTHING. At stake: my personal goals, the future I have envisioned for myself, stability and sure comfort. But if I actually believe what I say I believe, than my goals and my comfort are all temporary and meaningless. On the precipice….

If I do decide to follow Christ with all that I have, abandoning all else in my pursuit of the Cross, then I ask you to follow me. Not because of who I am or what I’ve done but because I am following Christ.


Walk with me as I walk with the Lord.

-Robert D.